A letter to my father. subject: marriage.

“Dada, i don’t want you to talk about my marriage anymore.” I know if i told you these words, you would lie and tell me “i have never told anyone about this, dear daughter” But then how come my younger cousin told me that it’s all you ever talk about in a family gathering? That…

Open Book Lies

Sometimes I think about how insecure I am, How cowardly I am, With an inability to practice what i preach. I say I am an open book But the book I have kept in front of you For you to read Isn’t mine.

Mother

The foot on my mother’s forehead that pushed her nose under water, Had planted her feet into the bottom of the pond, While water lilies intertwined her hair that doth stay afloat. Now that the Drought has come, she comes out with a Trident of Mercy, And my eyes can only be Drowned with Awe.

Machiavelian Mist

I’m so fragile today You raise your voice just a decibel And my throat chokes up And my eyes grow murky. You may think it is highly Machiavelian of me To show you this “facade” But it was always real Because if I wanted to manipulate you, I’d be reborn as your mother. Couldn’t you…

beautiful objects

Our eye that sees all Becomes blind from a single blinding light. I adore and satisfy myself with the beauty around me How selfish! What objects i form with my eyes, within seconds No life in them, just numbers Not living things anymore, just beautiful statues to be admired. But it turns sour when i…

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Julie, i feel this heavy feeling at the bottom on my tummy And i can’t help think about it’s ambiguous nature; For life to be so beautiful and vibrant But for my body to be so allergic to it; I wish every day would end with the sun going down on me; It would help…

memories of me

To everyone, I’ve told a different story A little autobiography That could never be complete. Bits and pieces of myself In everyone’s little memory. My impulses rush me to tell someone something But fear holds back from the entire truth. Everyone like jigsaw puzzle pieces That only i could arrange into a comprehensive teaser. My…

There is a Happiness in All Things

There is a happiness that comes with opening your windows in the morning There is a happiness that comes in strumming a familiar chord on your guitar There is a happiness that comes with visiting your secret place that no one else knows There is a happiness that comes with sipping the best instant coffee…

now here. nowhere.

Not unhappy Not sad Not happy Or glad To feel like i belong everywhere and nowhere. I am just here With the place I’ve been assigned to inhabit, To fill the spaces between my toes With the soil from the land i stand on. But I’ve been crawling for too long. There’s dirt everywhere Unable…

eternally mortal

How deceptive the clouds and the light… How deceptive the reflection laying flat on the still water… How deceptive our minds and the Gods it creates… How deceptive our bodies and the souls it holds… Our mortal lives flawed with the promises of immortality Our future is exactly that – Something we cannot see but…

Oxygen

When i breath I do so heavily To fill my lungs with air Hoping it will burst Because sadness takes over And my heart cannot feel heavier My nose kicks the grief tinged air out of my system Cleansing my insides Making my heart feel lighter But on coming tears choke my throat And i…

Off with my Head

There’s a pressure building up inside me And sometimes i consider burring a hole through my head So that all these thoughts may find release And even though i know it may hurt There are worse things that could happen. A small outlet is better than a severed head.