i hoped to never be like you when i grow up
but now that i’m an adult, i feel shattered
i hoped to never remain tame and quiet like my mum
because i knew i never wanted to be taken advantage of
and i hoped to never be loud and irritable like my dad
because i know no one will feel comfortable around someone so volatile
so everytime i become too shy to speak my mind
i tell myself to not be like her,
and everytime i burst and be angry at someone innocent
i tell myself to not be like him.
i feel restricted and scared to be an image of my parents,
because i don’t want to become the nightmare that they were to me.